My mom said that I will suffer in my life?

Wow. I can't comprehend what u r going through. Thats crazy. Firstly I feel sorry for u aye. It must be difficult. You do need to treat parents with respect however sometimes it is possible they do not deserve it especially with some of the thimgs you have written. Don't worry about your future. The fact you have written on here shows you care. If you try hard and mean well you will get where you want to go in life. Have no fear